can love destroy one's sanity?

seriously,

some secrets are better remain secrets.

at least that permits us the solace of a blissful ignorance.

don't you remember that we were once young and dumb?

and dumb because we were young?

all that we need is to live with the fact that - 

perfection lies only by Allah's side.

i just want you to know that i love you so.

in which it makes me wonder if love can actually destroy one's sanity.

because i'm losing mine.

maybe i really need to learn to put every temptation into its places.

so that i can reclaim my heart.

ppas, 

aug 6th, 2014

mirror

You have no idea how hard I've looked for a gift to bring You. 

Nothing seemed right. 

What's the point of bringing gold to the gold mine, or water to the ocean. 

Everything I came up with was like taking spices to the Orient. 

It's no good giving my heart and my soul because you already have these. 

So I've brought you a mirror. 

Look at yourself and remember me. 

-Rumi-

post thesis submission events

salam wbt.

I think I just wanna have something on the post list. Well, to start over after quite sometimes of not writing is pretty tough if I can say.

So, just to kick some momentum here are few events took place after my thesis submission.

I went to this pre-marriage course with one of my bestie. I think we both had a great laugh over the weekend haha. Can't really recall some of the lessons taught but one important take home message is --------->

marriage is responsibility

And the solemnization. 

To be earnest, there are more than just responsibilities in one's marriage life. It's not like dating that we could dump one another once things got difficult and tough. Over time we'll learn more about ourselves and our spouse. Adjustments and balancing all the way. An open secret of a happy marriage ----------->

Always know that it's only a means to get closer to our Lord and make Him happy.

Reliance is not on ourselves what more on the significant other.

It's Allah, and Allah alone.

So there went the receptions on both sides. It wasn't easy breezy kinda stuff I tell you. I'd like to thank my parents, my siblings, my relatives and kin for holding the most perfect wedding for me. May Allah bless us all till jannah. amiin.

Viva voce.

Hehhh... finally. Three months time for relaxing and forgetting the master-piece is really something. Alhamdulillah all went well. This success is not mine to begin with. It's my parents', my family and friends' and my sv's too. Thank you Allah :)

May Allah ease us all the way to struggle in attaining His blessings and love and forgiveness. 

May Allah help us to remember our purposes of life and hold our feet firm on His deen. 

This life is a test.

May Allah help us through to pass all of the trials and tribulations and make the very day we're standing before Him as the BEST day for us all.

amiin.

hutang budi dibawa mati (untuk sisters)

in the name of Allah, my Master, My everything iA.

pisang emas dibawa belayar

masak sebiji di atas peti

hutang emas boleh dibayar

hutang budi dibawa mati.

pantun sangat :)


i was just wondering.
you know, how could we pay people's budi (s)?
as the pantun says, if we're indebted others with money, things are quite straightforward.
money can be paid with money kalau ada duit lah en.
but budi?
or shall i say, others' kindness, compassion and helping hands when we're in dire needs of those.
seriously.
if it is me, i really think only Allah could reward those beautiful souls with the best gift for sacrificing their own interests, time, money and everything in between for this helpless master-jee (referring to myself).
untuk seorang yang penniless seperti saya (kofff...kofff...), i can only afford free things like.....

DU'A

that one, i can give whole lot of them :)

after all, there's one sister said this to me...

'the most special place to be is, 

in someone else's du'a'

see my reasoning now?

escapism

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itu bukan alasan untuktidak berusaha sedaya kita untuk membalas kebaikan orang lain kepada kita.
sungguh.
saya berdoa dan sangat berharap supaya Allah mudahkan saya untuk mengingat kebaikan setiap individu kepada saya dalam senang atau susah untuk saya berusaha membalas dengan harga yang sama (walaupun tidak akan mungkin sama as much as i want it to be).

untuk Toreeqians
yang menangis ketawa bersama
yang mengusung dan menjemput diri ini ke 'tempat yg saya tak nak sebut dalam tempoh dua bulan ni' bila kaki dah tak kuat nak melangkah
yang jadi provider jajan dan pom-pom girls di kala stress memuncak
yang jadi runners rumah and everything bila saya dah tak boleh nak ambil kisah
yang mengurus makan minum dan mandi (sementelah selangor dicatu airnya)
yang jadi sponge untuk ambil semua negativiti dalam diri yang 'period' 24/7 a.k.a emo semedang
dan semestinya, yang jadi tukang 'amiiin' bila every time saya kata:

"ya Allah, selamatkanlah hambaMu ini"

shafura. ishmah. aidah. wani. fifi. hirayana. bella. maei. syifa. zahiah. nadirah.
(semua ni bukan nama sebenar. sila take note)
moga Allah gantikan dengan firdausi a'laa (bukan bagi yang ada 'jannah' sahaja ya. errr...krikk..krikk)


untuk Badarians, a.k.a team Em as You
yang hampir selalu menjadi mangsa keadaan
yang every time liqa asyik kena psycho
yang jadi talian hayat saat tak tahu mana nak tuju
yang jadi tukang tepuk bahu bila progress tak berapa nak maju

Jiha. k.nira. wani. intan. anis. syidah. k.nad. farah. ati.
(semua ni bukan nama sebenar. sila take note)
moga Allah tsabatkan kita semua. sampai syurga.

untuk usrati & Istajubu's
yang tembak doa tak henti
yang banyak tolak ansur dalam diri
moga Allah ikhlaskan kita semua dan bantu kita untuk memberi manfaat walau di bumi mana kita dicampakkan.

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dan individu2 lain yang tak tersebutkan.
supervisors ke dua, ke tiga dan yang ke seterusnya selepas sv sebenar saya:
k.munirah (bukan nama sebenar), yana (bukan nama sebenar), k.asma (bukan nama sebenar), k. niza (bukan nama sebenar), k.sham (bukan nama sebenar).

dan sungguh, kalau bukan kerana nikmat Allah, entah di mana saya.

Two things define you.

your patience when you have nothing

and your attitude when you have everything.

and Allah knows best.