It’s a dilemma. Or an issue. Maybe a conflict dalaman thingy. Perhaps, it’s just a glimpse of reality of our ummah which really bites.
Lecturer X: You know what, Muna (bukan nama sebenar), you should change your personality.
Me: Change my personality?
Lecturer X: Yes. You cannot be too nice, too sweet. Get vibrant a bit, but don’t clone me. I’m one of a kind.
Me: - smiling- (monolog dalaman: me? cloning you? will that benefited me in a way or another?)
Lecturer X: Many Malays think that if we don’t dress up like you, we’re not Malay
Me: - pretending like paying attention to every details of the story – (thinking: dress codes? what? Wearing hijab, hand socks, jeans and flat shoes?)
Lecturer X: There are many ways of showing our personality. It’s not only through our dressing, and many people do not know that. Like you, one day you’ll be an English lecturer, and you cannot be like this.
Me: - just can’t be bothered -
Adik S: Kak Muna (bukan nama sebenar) tengah sambung master dalam course apa?
Adik S: English? (muka terkejut tak percaya)
Adik S: Tak adalah, selalunya orang yang ambil course English yang nak jadi lecturer macam akak, tak pakai macam ni (baju kurung, hand sock and tudung yang labuh a bit).
Me: hehh... (tenat~)
My question, are English lecturers or maybe people who study English are not muslims?
Oh Emmm Geeeee
I’m not sure if you noticed such phenomenon. I mean, in this Malaysia Bolehland, people who study in science streamed schools and agama boarding schools are different. The way they behave, their dress codes and apparently the way of how islam is put into picture for these so-called different groups of students.
My question, again, are people who study science are not muslims? What about people who study literature and social science?
In the 1Malaysia varsity I’m in right now, where only Bumis are here, and islam should be practiced MORE freely, the situation could never been better.
English people are different breed. The lecturers and students are kinda noticeable in a way – from the way they socialized and dressed up. And people like me, being placed in the picture is just like an awkward event. They’ll look at you as if they’re human and you’re not. Okay, that’s emotional and quite digressed a bit.
And yet, if we are questioned why we’re being so secular in a way or another, we’ll gone mad. Hehh, how irony things could be.
Of course, this is 1Malaysia varsity in a Malaysia Bolehland -_-’
Banyak nya ‘KERJA’ kita!
Note 1: “(We sent them) with clear Signs and Books of dark prophecies; and We have sent down unto thee (also) Message; that thou mayest explain clearly to men what is sent for them, and that they may give thought” (An Nahl, 16:44)
Note 2: Mari berbuat kerana Allah. Bukan untuk sedapkan mata dan hati manusia. We can never pleased everyone on earth, but we can always please one God, inshaAllah.
Note 3: Change the world within you, then the world around you would change, inshaAllah.